Just like the rest of the country, I’ve been having money issues. I’ve finally reached my last year of undergrad and because of the changes in lending procedures I’ve had a lot of difficulty arraigning my student loans. I did the grown up thing and set up a budget that includes all my expenses and I’ve worked out a plan that should meet that budget. At this point, I’ve put my plan into action and I’m waiting for results which, unfortunately, I don’t have control over. It’s the waiting that freaks me out.
I’m scared that my schoolwork will suffer because I’ll spend more time focusing on the money issues. Scared that I’ll feel that I have to fix the situation rather than just let it unfold and deal with the little issues as they appear.
Situations where I feel a lack of control tend to cause me more anxiety than they should. It’s as though my self-esteem is tied to my level of control. If I feel that I am in control, I value myself higher. I feel more competent when things run smoothly. However, I do have a plan that is no different from thousands of other students and other people really. Money issues are never certain for anyone. I need to remind myself that the current situation is uncertain but I’m still competent and I’ve come up with an effective plan. I just need to stick with it and be ready to adapt to slight hiccups.
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